Patience

It's funny how God finds way to send messages to us. When I was in Dayton, Mr. Drew's homilies always seemed to point me in the right direction, or give me perspective on some confusing part of life. Now I feel Fr. Stan's homilies have the same affect upon me.

While I can't say I recall the readings, Fr. Stan said they had to do with patience. Therefore, his homily had to do with patience. I sparked my interest in particular because I have always considered myself an impatient person. My mom tells me I'm "so damn impatient." I especially consider my situation in a long distance relationship one that is testing my patience.

Before I went to church today, I updated my resume. I did this because Joe and I have been together a year this month. We haven't figured out what to do. I decided to update my resume to try to scope out the job situation in DC and NC to help us make a more educated decision. Since Anna left Empower and got a job in DC I felt more spurred to action to finally do this. With my old PC back in my condo, I now had the means to do it. So I did. But now, I know this is just the start of a long process, and much soul searching.

Today at church, I learned that all good things take time. In particular, Fr. Stan mentioned if you tried to save a butterfly from a cocoon, it would die because it would not be strong enough. A butterfly needs time to grow, and it grows stronger when it fights its way free of the cocoon. In a way, I feel like that butterfly. It will take time for me to break free, but the process will make me strong and I will be more beautiful, and truly free. My relationship with Joe will only grow stronger if we exercise patience.